I’m a male in my late 40’s. I have a wife (together since 2001/married in 2009) and two kids (daughter 14/son 6). I run a small business locally. I put on a handful of events related to my business every year. I have friends from every background, social economic status and across age groups. And for about a decade now, I’ve had a secret that I’ve never shared with anyone and of which, nobody has ever asked about or recognized at all. I smoke crystal meth daily. Not a crazy amount but every day. There’s been times over the last ten years when I could not afford it but still managed to afford it. At this point in my life it doesn’t cause much harm. Not financially. Not socially. I assume it does physically. But otherwise, it’s not causing me issues. At all. There’s been hundreds of times I’ve almost opened up to friends or family but I never have. I’ve only had two people I get it from the entire time so that’s not an issue either. But the person I get it from is the only person I know that knows about me doing it. I’ve tried to stop and have gone a couple weeks ago few times. But I end up giving in. There was a point where it did help me accomplish my daily tasks but I honestly don’t feel like it’s doing that anymore. It’s just a bad habit that is taking years off my life and stealing small bits of time that I should be spending on improving life, instead of negatively impacting it.